Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Nisi Dominus Frustra

A prayer of ceasing

Just being present to You
More important than any work
Any concern
Even pain or trouble anywhere

Without You, all is futile
Only with You
In the picture
All things make sense.

You say, 'Walk with me,
I am your friend and your partner;
It is I who will bear fruit through you.'

The inward struggle : What's more important? God's work or being present to God? Being still seems a waste of time, and uneffective use of it. But if I just keep working without time with God, what and whom am I working for? And what kind of work am I doing?
-YY

Terrifying Presence

A burning bush moment

So many encounters
None like tonight's.

The air grew heavy
Weighing down on me
My limbs numb

An otherness upon me
Pinned down
Breathing is difficult
Paralysed

Perhaps this is how Daniel felt
Prostrate before God

For the first time
I glimpse at how awesome
How terrifying, how petrifying
God is

I could be snuffed out in a moment
Not just small but utterly insignificant
Nothinq, less than nothing
Terrified but cannot run

Great ls The Lord
Awesome. Majestic.
Overpowering.

I have no words even to repent
Prostrate is not low enough!
O that the ground would open and swallow me!

May I always live in reverent fear of my God!

-YY

Monday, December 22, 2003

You Alone

You Lord alone
Be my all
Nothing else before You
Or above You

You lead me
Go before me
Draw me
Spur me on

Take me further
Into You
Nothing is more important
Nothing is important

But You
You Alone
And alone with You
-YY